Book 3, Chapter 6

Dear Journal,

I have freedom, i sat in the cafe listening to the telescreen, i realized that i have been forgiven, and i realized that the victory gin is my life, i go to bed on it and I wake up on it, i walked down the corridor with the guard at my back, that is when I realized it, two plus two must equal five, and every slogan is true, i have won the inner battle with myself and now, I love Big Brother.

Book 3, Chapter 5

Dear Journal,

they were right, Room 101 is by far the worst thing in the world, it varies from person to person, some its drowning, some its burial alive, but for me it was rats. They told me that they would come for my eyes, or my toungue, i had to put someone in between me and the rats. It was Julia, i screamed "Do it to Julia!" I have finally gave in.

Book 3, Chapter 4

Dear Journal,

I am feeling much better, i am growing fatter and stronger every single day. They gave me a new set of dentures, i am still thinking about Julia and wondering if she is getting the same treatment. O'Brien told me that i need to make progress emotionally, he asked me if i love Big Brother, and i said that i hated him, he pushed me towards the gaurds and said "Room 101." Oh no, this is it.

Book 3, Chapter 3

Dear Journal,

i hate this place, today i was forced to look in the mirror and the person staring back at me seemed like a complete stranger. he was bald his ribs were showing and his knees were thicker than his thighs. I could not believe it, i smell like a goat and i am losing all of my teeth. O'Brien told me that in the end they would shoot me.

Book 3, Chapter 2

Dear Journal,

the beatings are horrible, and O'Brien began to interrogate me, sharp pains were ringing through my body he held up four fingers and forced me to see five, he held up a picture and told it wasn't real, he told me none of this never happened, and that it was all made inside of my head. Obrein told me that Julia has betrayed me, and that i do not exist. and in a moment, i saw his five fingers. with no deformity five plain fingers.

Book 3, Chapter 1

Dear Journal,

I do not know where i am, or how long i have been here, all i know is that i am very hungry. I began talking to an older woman with the last name of Smith, jokingly she said that she might be my mother and i thought for a second that she could be. I would double my pain in order to save Julia, but that is not an option. I wonder what is in room 101. the most shocking thing happened they have caught O'Brien too, he said he has been caught for a long time now and i began to feel hopeless

Book 2, Chapter 10

Dear Journal,

oh lord, this is horrible, Mr Charrington was a member of the Thought Police. And there was a behind the picture that Julia said must have hundreds of bugs in it. That was the worst feeling ever, hearing the iron voice made my insides hurt, they told us to stand back to back and I could telescreen feel Julia's body shaking with fear. I saw Julia upside down with her eyes closed, will that be the last time i see her? This is horrifying

Book 2, Chapter 9

Dear Journal,

Today, I finally got the book, I read it at mr. Charringtons place, i read chapter one and three. chapter one was about Ignorance is strength and chapter three was about War is Peace. in the middle of my reading i stopped, i began to appreciate the fact that I was reading, no telescreen and no nervous impulse to glance over my shoulder or to cover the page with my hand, It was a nice, relaxing feeling, so I opened the book up and thats when I came across chapter three. I read to Julia, but she fell asleep, she did not show much interest in it, most of what i read i already knew, but it was nice to know that there are other people out there that think like me.

Book 2, Chapter 8

Dear Journal,

Today, Julia and I finally met with O'Brien. My heart was pumping i was so excited/nervous. i could barely speak! Then, he did something that i could never imagine, as he was walking pass the telescreen, it seemed as if an idea occurred to him. He pressed a switch on the wall, there was a sharp snapping noise, and the telescreen shut off, me and Julia were shocked. he told me that Goldstien and the brotherhood were real, he told me that he was a part of the brotherhood. He began asking us a series of questions. " are you prepared to commit suicide if and when we order you to do so?" I answered yes. then he asked, "are you two prepared to be separated and never see each other again?" I felt like i could not speak, Julia answered no,and i finally got the "no" out of me too. then he gave us some wonderful wine and I shook his hand and left, he has a really strong handshake. Today was a great day for me.

Book 2, Chapter 7

Dear Journal,

I just woke up from a nightmare. i remember the gesture of my mothers arm, which was the same gesture that the old Jewish woman made on the News film before the helicopter blew her and her son both to pieces. I remember stealing my sisters chocolate and running away, my mom screamed "Winston come back!" that was the last thing she ever said to me. after a few hours i got hungry again and came back to the house. both of the, my sister and my mother had been gone, everything was the same about the room except for their presence, it seems like they vanished.

Book 2, Chapter 6

Dear Journal,

Today was the day that I was finally able to meet O'Brien. he showed me the new edition of Newspeak. he told me about the reduction of the use of verbs in the tenth edition of newspeak. Then he gave me his address! while talking to O'Brien today i came across this feeling that i was a little less alive. I felt as if i were walking into the dampness of a grave.

Book 2, Chapter 5

Dear Journal,

Just like I thought. Syme has disappeared. There was nobody curious or wondering what happened to him, thats because he never existed. his name was erased from the Chess committee. There is a new poster all over london, its a Eurasian soldier with the barrel of his gun pointed right at you. This poster is probably there to induce fear of the enemy. Today, Julia told me that she was not interested in the future, and that she was interested in us. I realized that we are the two same people but with opposite motives, i rebel for the future she rebels for herself.

Book 2, Chapter 4

Dear Journal,

Mr. Charrington let me use the room above his shop so i cold meet Julia there. he had no trouble giving us the room, he was happy that he was able to make a few bucks out of it, he knows the reason why I am renting out his room, but he seems fine with it. Today, Julia gave me real sugar, not saccharine and real coffee and real tea, not Blackberry leaves. Julia put on makeup today, i was astonished by how just a couple of dabs can dramatically change a persons overall appearance.

Book 2, Chapter 3

Dear Journal,

I love Julia, I told her the more men she has had sex with, the more I love her. I love that she disobeyed Big Brother and that she works for the friction department of the Anti Sex League and that she does everything they preach not to behind there backs, she is the perfect woman for me. Today, Julia asked me if i regret not pushing katharine to her death, I told her it would not make a difference. And we began to arrange our next meeting.

Book 2, Chapter 2

Dear Journal,

I did not know someone like her existed out there. I know for sure that I am not alone. she gave me chocolate like I have never tasted before, her name is Julia, she already knew my name. she hates the party and loves to have sex just for the fact that she is disobeying. we had sex and it was a blow struck against the party , it was a political act.

Book 2, Chapter 1

Dear Journal,

I would have never predicted this, the dark haired lady gave me a note today, no, not to tell me I have been caught by the thought police, the note said " I Love You." I still do not know her name, she still could be a spy but i know she isn't. we talked and she told me to meet up with her, its a risk, but i am willing to take it.

chapter 8

Dear Journal,

I was walking up a cobbled street in Prole territory when i heard someone yell "Steamer!" that meant bomb and it destroyed houses a couple of hundred meters away from me up the street. Today i went searching for a answer about the past. there, i cam across an old man in a pub and asked him about if he had more freedom in the past then he does know, all i got was a bunch of useless details. Plus, i saw the dark haired girl again today, i think she is a spy, next time i see her i am going to kill her, she is the reason that i have become paranoid of being caught.

chapter 7

Dear Journal,

If there is hope for rebellion, it lies in the proles. They make up eighty- five percent of our total population. the hope lies in them because the party does not watch them. Today, I realized that i am writing my journal to O'brien because in the end, the part will announce that two plus two equals FIVE, and you would have to believe it, O'Brien was on his side, he was speaking to O'Brien. Freedom is being able to say that two plus two equals FOUR.

Chapter 6

Dear Journal,

Today i remembered two things, my encounter with an aged prole prostitute and my ex wife or wife Katharine. Sex with Katharine was awful she did not even call it sex, she called it" our duty to the party" and every time he had sex , it seemed like she was pushing me away. The party has been trying to kill the sex instinct and for the women it is successful. My sexual encounter with a prole was old, but i was looking for the pleasure, i had not had sex in a long time, i do not know what i was thinking,i do not want to think about it, but i feel like it is off of my back now that i have it written down,

Chapter 5

Dear Journal,

Today I came across many things, One is that nobody has friends anymore, they have "colleagues." Two being that there is a major razor blade shortage, I do not think i would have noticed if Syme had not brought it up. I am worried for Syme, he knows too much and he is walking down a dangerous path with all of the information he knows and how he talks about it. He was telling me that by the year 2050 there will be no more words to express emotion. That would be horrible, i could not imaging people not knowing how to express their feelings.

Chapter 4

Dear Journal,

Today I witnessed first hand how easy it is to change or add to the past. All it really takes is a few lines of print and some faked photographs. Today, I commemorated comrade Oglivy. He devoted his whole life to Big Brother, he was a spy at nine years old and a district organizer of the ANit sex league at seventeen. Comrade Oglivy, who never existed a mere hour ago, was now a fact. he never existed in the present, but in the past. he was authentic as Charlemagne or Julius Ceasar.

Chapter 3

Dear Journal,

I caught myself dreaming of my mother today, i remember her beautiful hair,I do not remember how my mother and my sister passed, but i am sure that they died in order for me to live on. The telescreen woke me up with a horrific whistling, and I started coughing violently, i had to lie on my back in order to breathe again. Today, i was forced to do these pathetic workouts that are quite hard to do with my ulcer but today was the first time i was able to touch my toes in several years.

Chapter 2

Dear Journal,

Today i was lying down after some writing when i heard a serious of violent knockings at my door. I waited to see if the knocking would cease but it repeated. I put my hand on the doorknob, on the other side of the door could be the death of me, I mustered up all of the courage in my body and opened the door. It was Mrs. Parsons asking me to go take a look at her clogged up kitchen sink, It turns out there was a ball of hair stuck in her sink, this whole Diary experience for me has been nerve racking.

Chapter 1

Dear Journal,

as i was walking up my stairs today, ( the lift is broken.) i felt like i was being followed, as it turns out I was by none other than Big Brother, it seems like he is everywhere. I noticed that the telescreen was in an unusual position, so i decided that i would take time to write to you. there is many things swirling through my head at the moment, mainly O'Brien and the dark haired girl. I am not sure where she is from but i am curious.